2. Lucie-Christine

215THOSE students of mysticism who feel that the purely cloistered type of spirituality, as seen in Thérèse Martin and Elizabeth Catez, is too remote from the common experience to be actual to us, may find something with which they can sympathize and from which they can learn, in the self-revelations of the remarkable contemplative who is known under the pseudonym of Lucie-Christine.

This lady, whose spiritual journal was published in 1912, was a married woman of the leisured class, leading the ordinary life of a person of her type and position. She was born in 1844 and married in 1865. She had five children. At forty-three she became a widow, and in 1908, after nineteen years of blindness, she died at the age of sixty-four. Nothing could have been more commonplace than her external circumstances. On the religious side she was an exact and fervent Roman Catholic, accepting without question the dogmas and discipline of the Church, and diligent in all the outward observances of conventional French piety. Her time was spent in family and social duties, sometimes in Paris, sometimes in her country home; and she appeared to her neighbours remarkable only for her goodness, gentleness, and love of religion. Yet her inward life — unsuspected by any but her parish priest, for whom her journal was written — had a richness and originality which entitle her to a place among the Catholic mystics, and often help us to understand the meaning and character of the parallel experiences which those mystics216describe. The value for study of a contemplative who is at once so modern and so classic is obvious. This value is increased by the fact that for many years Lucie-Christine knew nothing of mystical literature, and was ignorant even of the names of the spiritual states which her journal so faithfully describes. Therefore in her case unconscious imitation, which accounts for much so-called mystical experience, appears to be excluded.

Her journal — at present our only source of information — covers thirty-eight years: from 1870 to 1908. The first twelve years, however, are only represented by fragmentary notes, put together in 1882; when Lucie-Christine, at the suggestion of her confessor, began to keep a detailed record of her religious life. Whatever view we may take of its theological value, this record is certainly a psychological document of the first class. It is the work of a woman of marked intelligence; temperamentally philosophic, and with great intuitional gifts. The short memoir prefixed to the French edition tells us that even as a child she showed unusual qualities; was grave, thoughtful, and to some extent "psychic," being subject to flashes of clairvoyance, and premonitions of important and tragic events. This peculiarity, which she disliked and never spoke of, persisted through life; and its presence in her helps us to understand how the many stories of abnormal power possessed by the mystics first arose.

Her character was by no means of that detached and inhuman type which is supposed to be proper to religious exaltation. She was ardent and impressionable, gave love and craved for it; her qualities and faults were essentially of a lovable kind. She reveals herself in her journal as sensitive, idealistic, and affectionate; somewhat unpractical, very easily wounded, tempted to irritability, and inclined to worry. "The excessive wish to be loved, appreciated, admired by those whom I love," was one of the temptations against which, as a young woman, she felt it necessary to pray:217another was the longing for enjoyment, for personal happiness. It was only after eight years of intermittent mystical experience that she learned the secret of inward peace: to "lose her own interests in those of God, and receive a share in His interests in exchange." Though the "activity and practical capacity of Martha" never came naturally to her, she was yet a splendid wife and mother. Even in the years when her inner life was passed in almost continuous contemplation, she never neglected human duties for superhuman joys; but planned and shared the amusements of her boys and girls, wrote and rehearsed the plays which they acted, and watched with care over every detail of their lives.

Her spiritual life developed gradually and evenly. There is no trace in it of any psychic storm or dramatic conversion. She grew up in a religious home, and even in childhood seems to have been attracted to silent devotion or "mental prayer." As a girl she was a vital, impulsive creature, full of eager enthusiasms. That deep, instinctive longing for Perfection which makes one man an artist, another a philosopher, and another a saint, showed itself early in a passionate worship of all beautiful things. " Tout ce que je connaissais de beau me passionnait et entraînait toute mon âme. La première vue de la mer et des falaises m'arracha des larmes. . . . Je ne pouvais trouver l'expression qui traduisit assez ardeur dont le beau enflammait mon imagination, et je ne voyais pas d'inconvénients ces entraînements excessifs; au contraire, je m'y livrais de toute la force de ma volonte. Infortunée, mon âme en revenait cependant avec le sentiment du vide et de l'insuffisance, et c'est alors qu'elle rejetait son activité dévorante sur l'idéal qui lui reservait tant de dangers! Moins altérée du beau, je me fusse peut-être contentée des choses réelles, mais comme le coureur, lancé dans un fol elan, dépasse le but, ainsi mon âme s'élançait vers le beau a peine aperçu et cherchait encore au delâ."

In this important passage we see the true source of Lucie's 218mysticism. It was the craving for an absolute and unchanging loveliness on which to expend her large-hearted powers of adoration and self-giving, which led her like the Platonists through visible beauty to its invisible source. She had, as she says of herself in a sudden flash of ironic wit, "le coeur assez mal placé pour trouver Dieu plus aimable que le monde, et l'esprit assez étroit pour se contenter de l'Infini"; but it was not until youth was nearly over, and she had been married for eight years, that she found what she sought. One day, when she was meditating as usual on a passage in the Imitation of Christ, she saw and heard within her mind the words "Dieu seul!" — summing up and answering in one phrase the vague efforts and questions of her growing mystical sense, and offering to the hungry psyche the only satisfaction of desire. As Fox was released from his conflict by the inner voice which cried, "There is one only who can speak to thy condition," so this inner voice, says Lucie (whom it greatly astonished), "fut à la fois une lumière, un attrait, et une force. Une lumière qui me fit voir comment je pouvais être complètement à Dieu seul dans le monde, et je vis que jusque-là je ne l'avais pas bien comprit. Un attrait par lequel mon coeur fut subjuguè et ravi. Une force qui m'inspira une résolution genereuse et me mit en quelque sorte dans les mains les moyens de l'exécuter, car le propre de ces paroles divines est d'opérer ce qu'elles disent."

We see at once the complete and practical character of her reaction to the divine; the promptitude with which she makes the vital connection between intuition and act. St. Teresa said that the object of the spiritual marriage was "the incessant production of work." So for Lucie-Christine that sure consciousness of the Presence of God which now became frequent, "clothing and inundating" her as she sat alone at her sewing or took part in some social activity, called her above all to "faire les petites choses du dévouement journalier avec amour"; conquering her natural irritability and dislike219for the boredoms and unrealities of a prosperous existence. "N'avoir jamais l'air ennuyé des autres. Que de fois je manque à ceci avec les pauvres enfants. Vous etes ennuyeux! C'est bien vite dit! Est-ce une amabilité divine? "

More and more, as her mystical consciousness grew, the life of contemplation became her delight; and it was plainly a real trial to be distracted from it for trivial purposes. In company, or busied with household duties, she went for hours with "her soul absorbed, its better part rapt in God." She "tried to appear ordinary," and made excuses if her abstraction was observed; but there are a few entries in her journal which will give pleasure to those who condemn mysticism as an "anti-social type of religion." " Nous avons été nous promener, quatorze. Je remarque que d'aller ainsi avec plusieurs 'Marthes' hommes ou femmes, cela ne fait rien. On laisse discourir, on met un mot de temps en temps, mais, en définitive, on demeure bien libre et l'oraison va toute seule. Mais avec une seule Marthe, que c'est terrible! La tete-a-tete oblige a causer presque tout le temps."

When Lucie wrote this, ten years after her first illuminative experience, she was far advanced in contemplation. She had known that direct and ineffable vision of God "Himself the True, the Good, the Beautiful; all things being nothing save by Him" which is characteristic — though she knew it not — of the unitive way: known too the corresponding experience of dereliction, when the door which had opened on Eternity seemed tightly closed. It would be tedious to analyze in detail the rich profusion of mystic states which she had already exhibited: the degrees of contemplation, ecstasies, visions and voices, all the forms taken by her growing intuition of the Transcendent. Many of these can be matched in the writings of the great mystics. Again and again as we read her, we are reminded of Angela of Foligno, Ruysbroeck, Julian of Norwich, Catherine of Genoa, even of Plotinus: yet Lucie-Christine was at this time ignorant of mystical literature,220and only in later life found with amazement descriptions of her own experiences in the works of the great contemplatives.

These experiences had a wide range. Some we are justified in regarding as invasions from her deeper self; coming to the rescue of the often distracted surface personality, and correcting the impressions of the outer world by its own intimations of Eternity. Thus, in 1875, she confesses that being particularly worried by a number of people, the Divine voice said to her, "Ma fine, il n' y a que toi et moi." She replied: "Seigneur, et les autres?" The voice said: "Pour chaque âme en ce monde il n'y a que moi et elle, toutes les autres âmes et toutes choses ne sont rien pour elle que par moi et pour moi," and by this timely reminder of the one Reality in whose life she lived, and by and in whom alone all other lives are real, she was recalled to her inner poise.

In assessing the value of this, and many other of her revelations, we have to remember that Lucie-Christine was a fervent and exact Churchwoman. Her belief was literal. She felt no discord between traditional Christianity of the most concrete kind and the freedom of her own communion with God. The fruits of that communion were often expressed by her in theological terms, and the special atmosphere and tendencies of French Catholicism certainly affected the form of many of her contemplations. Thus at one end of the scale her passionate devotion to the Person of Christ, and the fact that her religious practice centred in the Eucharist, sometimes resulted in visions of a distinctly anthropomorphic type. In these, her intuition of God's presence translated themselves into hallucinatory images of the Face of Christ, or of His eyes looking at her; or photisms, which she explained to herself as the radiance emanating from His person. As we all know, such dramatizations of mystical emotion are comparatively commonplace. The elements from which the self constructs them are by no means all of a spiritual kind; and experienced mystics agree in regarding them with much221suspicion. A careful study of Lucie-Christine's journal forces us to admit, that the deliberate passivity which she cultivated often placed her at the mercy of her instinctive nature; and that its hidden wishes sometimes took a devotional form. To this source, too, we must refer those "obsessions and temptations" — in other words, uprushes from the lower centres — by which she was often attacked during contemplation, and also the occasionally sentimental and emotional character of her reactions to the Divine.

These objections, however, do not apply to the remarkable "metaphysical visions" — sharp onsets of real transcendental consciousness — in which her innate passion for the Absolute found satisfaction. Then, as she says, God seemed to "put aside all intermediaries between Himself and the soul;" and "bathed and irradiated by the Divine substance "she became "aware of the Divine Abyss," or perceived, as Julian of Norwich did, "the Universe in a point," swallowed up in the simple yet overwhelming sight of God. Here lie, for us, the real interest and value of Lucie-Christine's confessions. She shares with Angela of Foligno and a few other historical mystics the double apprehension of the Divine Nature under its personal and impersonal forms; and as both utterly transcendent to, yet completely immanent in, the human soul. In her descriptions of these visions, this woman unread in philosophy displays a grasp of the philosophic basis of religion which would do credit to a trained theologian. Thus she says "Il n'y a pas, ce me semble, de vue intérieure qui égale celle de l'essence divine. Mon âme était comme environnée de la substance divine en laquelle elle voyait ce caractère essential qui nous est révelé par le mystère de la Sainte Trinité, c'est-à-dire qu'il y a en Dieu l'unite et la distinction, le tout et le particulier, et je sentais combien c'est folie de chercher quelque chose en dehors de lui." Again, "Étant profondement unie a lui dans la Sainte Communion, je vis Dieu en tant qu'il est le souverain bien, et je compris en même temps que le mal222n'est que la négation du bien, un pur néant. . . . Dans cette vue intellectuelle, je compris aussi combien sera grande la confusion des pécheurs quand ils seront jugés, et qu'ils verront que tout le mal qu'ils ont aimé, préconisé, adoré, se réduit au néant! Avoir aime le néant, avoir veçu pour lui, et perdre pour lui l'Etre éternel!" Here Lucie's view of sin is that characteristic of all mystics; who can seldom be persuaded, however orthodox they may be in other respects, that anything which is not good is real. We remember how Julian of Norwich, also a natural contemplative of philosophic temperament, says, "I saw not sin; for I believe it has no manner of substance nor part of being."

As an analyzer of her own psychological states, Lucie-Christine had something of that genius which St. Teresa possessed in a supreme degree; and she has, perhaps, an added value for us because she speaks not from the past nor from the cloister, but out of the Paris of our own day. We owe to her one of our most vivid descriptions of that apprehension of Eternal Life — the immersion of our durational existence in the Absolute Life of God — which Von Hugel regards as the fundamental religious experience. "J' ai observe," she says, "que pendant l'oraison passive et surtout dans l'etat d'union, l'âme perd le sentiment de la durée. Il n'y a plus pour elle de succession de moments, mais un moment unique, et j'ai cru comprendre qu'étant élevée a cet état, l'âme y vit selon le mode de vivre de l'éternité, ou il n'y a point de durée, point de passé ni d'avenir, mais un moment unique, infini." We have again to remember that the woman who wrote this had then no acquaintance with the classics of mysticism. It is her own impression which she is trying to register.

Again, consider this account of the state of divine union as she had known it: "L' âme va prier, elle s' élance pour franchir la distance qui la sépare de l'Infini, et cette distance elle ne la trouve plus! Elle veut aller à vous, mon Dieu, et vous êtes en elle! . . . Perdue en vous, elie oublie elle-223même et tout le reste, elle ne sait plus comment elle vit, ni comment elle aime; elle ne voit plus que Vous seul. Encore ne peut elle pas penser qu'elle vous voit et vous adore; car se serait se voir elle-même, et en de tels moments elle ne se voit pas, elle ne voit que Vous. Elle connait et aime par un mode nouveau et incomprehensible, qui est en dehors et infiniment au-dessus de l'exercice ordinaire de ses facultés. Elle sent que l'opération de Dieu a pris la place de la sienne et que c'est Dieu même qui opère en elle la connaissance et l' amour."

This sense of complete surrender to a larger life and greater power, of which love is the very substance and ground, is characteristic of nearly all high mystical experience; and the literature of contemplation would furnish many parallels to all that Lucie tells us of it. In this state, as she says in another place, "the thirst of the spirit is suddenly fulfilled by the Infinite," and "God takes possession of the ground of the soul, without passage of time or feeling of space." Then, the bewilderment and unrest produced in us by the disharmonies of daily life are healed. "Là ou tout raisonnement échoue," she says in one of her most beautiful passages; "où l'âme est tellement troublée qu' elle ne saurait même expliquer ce qui la trouble, la divine presence paraît, et soudain le vertige cesse et la paix renaît avec la lumière." Consciousness, ceasing more or less completely its normal correspondences with the temporal order, then becomes aware of the eternal and spiritual universe in which we really live.

Such an attitude to Eternity was a marked characteristic of Lucie-Christine's mysticism. Often, it produced in her the complete mono-ideism of ecstasy; and she describes the oncoming, content, and passing of these states with a minuteness which makes her journal a valuable document for the psychologist. Constantly, the intense awareness of the Divine Presence persisted through the many duties and activities of the day; "like a grave and tender note, dominating all the modulations of the keyboard of my exterior life." She is224not afraid to use the most violent metaphors, the most concrete images, in her efforts to express the intensity and reality of this spiritual life that she leads, this divine companionship that she enjoys. "I am nourished by God's substance." "I breathe the divine essence." "The presence of God is so clear that faith is not faith — it is sight." "The soul plays within God, as within a limitless universe." "The Divine action penetrates and transforms my adoration. It is the Divine Being who thinks, loves, and lives within me." None of the mystics have gone further than this in their claims; but it is significant that nearly all the greatest go as far.

Yet in all this, Lucie-Christine is strictly Evangelical. She was a Christian first, and a mystic afterwards. Though her expressions may seem startling, her mysticism never goes beyond that of St. John and St. Paul; and her most Platonic utterances can be justified by the New Testrnent. But the Pauline and Johannine teachings on the soul's union with Christ are not for her merely doctrinal statements. They are

vivid descriptions of states she has personally known, when her consciousness truly penetrated to that "region d'amour, region unique, où l'âme trouve un autre jour, une autre vie, un autre air respirable, où du moins tous ces éléments latents se trouvent manifestés, où Dieu seul apparait, et tout le reste rentre dans l'ombre."

Such a personal and overwhelming consciousness of "the greatness, power, and simplicity of God" — an all-inclusive unity which the unity of her spirit could comprehend — was the central interest of her life. She certainly tended to that which Baron von Hugel has called "the vertical relation" with the Divine. Nevertheless, this theocentric existence did not involve either the limp passivity or the spiritual selfishness with which it is sometimes charged. On the ethical side it committed her to a constant moral discipline; for her ardent and impulsive temperament reacted too easily to every external225stimulus. "I must give up pleasure — never work for my own enjoyment." "My one prayer is, that I may not feel joy and grief so vividly: that I may feel only Thee." This deliberate unselfing and concentration on God so strengthened the fibres of character that she was able to bear with quietness her many personal sorrows, and the long years of blindness — a bitter cross for that keen lover of beauty — which closed her life. Yet it did not muffle her in the unattractive folds of "holy indifference." She loved her family devotedly, and felt without mitigation the anxieties and griefs of human life. Her attitude to others was generous and sympathetic. God, she says, gives Himself to us that we may give Him again. His unique light must pass through the soul as through a prism; breaking up into the many colours of word and deed, forgiveness and good counsel, prayer and alms, self-forgetfulness and self-giving. Though exceedingly reserved about her spiritual experiences, which were only known to her confessor, the influence of these experiences was felt by those among whom she lived; and her house was known by them as "the house of peace."

Moreover, her love for the institutional and sacramental side of religion saved her from many of the dangers and extravagances of individualism. It gave her a framework within which her own intuitions could find their place; and a valid symbolism through which she could interpret to herself the most rarefied experiences of her soul. She is an example of the way in which the mystic seems able to achieve the universal without losing or rejecting its particular expression: assimilating symbols of an amazing crudity without in any way impairing her vision of truth. The conflict between that vision and the concrete objectives of popular devotion was ignored by her; as it is generally ignored by practical mystics of the institutional type. She, who had touched the Absolute in her contemplations, was yet deeply impressed by the drama of the Church; by its ceremonies, holy places, festivals, consecrations. 226Her inner life was nourished by its sacraments. She displayed the power — so characteristic of Christian mysticism at its best — of transcending without rejecting the formule of belief as commonly understood; of remaining within, and drawing life from, the organism, without any diminution in the proper liberty of the soul.

Thus, seen as a whole, Lucie-Christine's spiritual life has a richness and balance which reflects the richness and balance of her own nature; for an impoverished or one-sided character was never yet found capable of a fully developed and fruitful mysticism. We see her from girlhood seeking to satisfy her innate longing for reality; urged on the one hand by the artist's craving for perfect loveliness, on the other by the philosopher's instinct for Eternity. When the veil was lifted, and the inner voice said, "God only!" she found at once the reconciliation and the fulfilment of these two desires. The long and varied experience which followed was no more than an unfolding of the content of those words. They revealed to her the Substance of all beauty and truth; shining in that world of appearance which she loved to the last with an artist's passion, yet ever abiding unchanged in that world of pure being which she touched in her contemplations "above all feeling, image, and idea." Because of this double outlook on reality, her mysticism was both transcendental and sacramental. It irradiated the natural world, and also the symbols of religion, with that simple light of Eternity wherein she found "all beauties known and unknown, all harmonies natural and supernatural." Lucie-Christine makes clear to us, as few mystics have done, the immense transfiguration of ordinary life which comes from such an extension of consciousness; when "the veil suddenly drops, God reveals Himself, and the soul knows experimentally that which she knew not before." Her journal is full of passages in which its joy and splendour are described. I take one written in a time of great mental and physical suffering, when the cruel deprivations of blindness227were already closing in on her, and the two beings she loved best — her husband and her youngest daughter — had lately been taken from her by death. " Figurez-vous un pauvre prisonnier au fond d'un cachot renfermé et obscur, voyant tout à coup s'entr'ouvrir la voûte de ce cachot, et par là recevant la lumière du soleil, et aspirant avec force fair du dehors qui lui arrive embaumé des senteurs de la vie et de la chaleur de l' atmosphère resplendissante. Ainsi mon âme s'ouvrait, et buvait Dieu! . . . mon âme aspirait et buvait la vie même de la Trinité Sainte, et se sentait revivre, et n'avait plus aucun mal."